Showing posts with label self-belief. Show all posts
Showing posts with label self-belief. Show all posts

Friday, 15 November 2013

Self-doubt is incredibly corrosive.

“Make new mistakes.  Make glorious, amazing mistakes. 
Make mistakes nobody’s ever made before. 
Don’t freeze, don’t stop, don’t worry that it isn’t good enough ...” 
~ Neil Gaiman
A gorgeous morning in our bay!  That's Sheree and Cooper on the edge of the waves.
As a photographer ... and one that’s trying to gain recognition and make a living 
by what she does  ... that quote resonates with me.  
The closest I got to the Kingfisher today was when he perched on the lamp post next to the beach.
I’m ALWAYS second-guessing myself.  
Despite the best of intentions and the strongest of beliefs in myself, 
there are times when doubt creeps in  .... insidiously and without warning
 ... and fells me in one foul swoop.
Prince, a retired Guide Dog we met in the bay this morning ... 11 years old ... and he's owned by
a real estate agent Jimmy, who's offered to get more of my collection tins into another few shops.
I am my own worst nightmare. 
Self-doubt is incredibly corrosive.

And then I take a photo that just talks to me.  
It epitomises everything I want my photography to be and I KNOW I’m doing what I should.

I think I owe the Shag a vote of thanks.

It’s expected on a gorgeous sunshiny day that there’ll be an abundance of birdlife on the mudflats and in the rock pools ... especially as the tide was running low mid morning.  
That WASN’T the case today though.

The sunshine DID bring out the ramblers, the sunbathers, the toddlers ... but not the Kingfishers and the Herons that I’d been looking for.  We EVEN found breakfast for the Kingfishers but very few Kingfishers to catch it.
Kingfisher food!
Fossicking in the rock pools with the oldest lemming and the noise was great fun.  They were both BAREFOOT ... great for the mud and wading in rock pools but not so great for walking over barnacle encrusted outcrops.
Happy AND muddy lemmings!
My shoes are made for walking ... in mud, in rock pools AND over barnacles.  
A Hermit crab ... he disappeared into his shell when he got picked up.
We found hermit crabs, teeny weeny fish, barnacle encrusted fish skulls and lots of the little crabs that the Kingfishers like ... but NO Kingfishers.

The Shag we came across MORE than made up for not finding Kingfishers.  He was a Pied Shag, one of the 8 species of Shag endemic to New Zealand.  Not an Aussie import for once!

They’re notoriously shy and are very quick to take to the water when threatened.  
I seldom get close when I’m on the rocks but these two were drying their wings on the rocky outcrop in the middle of our beach.

They’d been fishing and, contrary to popular belief, a Shag’s feathers are not waterproof.  
They catch their food by chasing it underwater ... it’s called pursuit diving
... and need to rest and dry their wings before being able to fly. 
One took off and I thought the other would follow in quick succession ... but he didn’t.

He had the most magical blue eyes and totally changed my perspective on these birds. I've always thought them to be a bit bland and boring ... he was ANYTHING but.
He quite MADE my day!

Me taking photos of the Shag ... captured by the lemming.

“I am convinced that most people do not grow up.
We find parking spaces and honor our credit cards. 
We marry and dare to have children and call that growing up. 
I think what we do is mostly grow old
We carry accumulation of years in our bodies and on our faces, but generally our real selves, the children inside, are still as innocent and shy as magnolias.” 
~ Maya Angelou

Oh yes .... An Eastern Rosella popping down to say good morning!
A "Fergus" on the beach yesterday ... he's taken quite a shine to the rugby ball.


Saturday, 19 January 2013

Be weird! Be random!

Ebony .... wonderdog!

“Be weird. Be random. Be who you are, because you never know who would love the person you hide.” 
~ author unknown

I love that quote! I wish more people would let the real ‘them’ shine out 
instead of hiding behind socially acceptable facades. 

I found some colourful duck feathers ...

I’ve lost count of the number of women who come in the shop and love an outfit they try on but won’t buy it because they don’t think their husband would like it. Get real! I have to try very hard not to let my disbelief show on my face.  These women are empowered by their husband’s approval but not their own. 
How sad is that?




... and the duck that they came from!
It doesn’t apply to ALL women of course but the sad fact is that it seems to apply more to women of my own generation and older.

I’ve written about this before and it bothers me ... the lack of self-belief that pervades so many women's minds. Everyone has beauty, in one form or another ... why can they not see it?
Beautiful reflections today!
So I’ve set myself a task .... from Monday I intend looking for something positive to say about the appearance of every woman that walks into the shop. I can’t wait to see how they react ... I’m hoping for a smile or a lifting of the head ... a spring in the step as they walk out of the shop. 
Everyone wants Indy's toy!
It could be an enlightening exercise ... and it will make me smile .... a lot!!

There are so many things in my day that make me smile. On the days that I work at the shop I usually open up, then pop round to the Co-op for another serving of that addiction fixing beverage.

Finally Indy's got his toy!

On the corner of the road the Co-op is on, there’s a bank with doors that open automatically as you walk in. Most banks have doors like these but the doors of this bank, being on a corner, don’t need you necessarily to walk IN for the doors to open. You just need to walk PAST
 I LOVE IT!

I walk around the corner just close enough to activate the doors. The doors open and all the tellers look up .... and NO-ONE walks in.
It NEVER fails to make me chuckle! 

Yeah yeah .... I know. Small things amuse small minds .... but I’m blonde ....it’s allowed!

There was much amusement at Ebony’s antics this morning too. Not only did she retrieve the rugby ball from the pond but she also retrieved Indy’s toy ... both at the same time! How she manages to squash them in her mouth is beyond me, but squash them in she does ... very successfully!

It probably helps that the rugby ball has lost most of its air and is rather flat. It’s no wonder my hound prefers everyone else’s rugby ball to her own.
Whispering secrets in Blaze's ear!

Note to self .... pump up the hound’s rugby balls!!! Soon!!!